My wish .... That will never come

I hate this ....
I hate this world
When will I find happiness
When can I overcome my fears ...
And tell him that I love him
....
Why is it soo hard... to tell Zack...Those 3 words
Everytime I see him I just want to escape or avoid him
I tried to see him face to face but Im just too shy...
Whats wrong with me ??
My friends aren't helping me ...
My parent don't allowed me...
Everything I do just gets worst...
I just hope one day ,
I can overcome my fears and tell him my feelings
And just hope that he will understand it...
When that day comes...
I will be strong
Hope my wish comes true.....